So I've been in a struggle this week. Not in a bad way...it has been very good. Just seeking and searching out for my heavenly Father's guidance.
What I have found is still a lingering prayer in my heart and my mind. I am not totally grasping it yet, but here it is...
I think that God is calling me to be satisfied in Him alone.
I know we should all be content to be satisfied in Him alone, but I think that this is to mean something even more for me...is God's plan for me to remain single? Like I said the whole meaning of this statement I have not fully grasped yet. Because I still have a strong desire in my heart to be married and have a family. Maybe it is just telling me that it will be awhile and that He has something else to do for His glory.
I still have my own dream...I just am not sure if it is corresponding with Gods. BUT if God would have me be single...could I live the rest of my life like that? Is it just for a time? I see nothing as of now that is leading me towards marriage. I still desire it. Am I willing to give it up for Him who gave up everything for me. What do I have now to give to God that He has not already given to me?
Trust in the lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths.
I am not worried about it..if I continue to hold to this promise I trust my Lord to keep it :)