Be content. That is what God had been teaching me over the summer. It wasn't very hard then, but for some reason it is now! I was in a state of contentment...is God pushing me for more? I can't seem to be or feel content now... I don't know. Is it wrong for me to want to matter? To be important and actually feel like I am doing something with my life and going somewhere? Instead I have this overbearing feeling of insignificance! Am I the only one who feels this way?
I will be patient and trust God. I can have a joyful contenance and a peaceful spirit. I don't even know what I want or what I am looking for!?! But I know it can be found in God. I am a simple girl that lives a simple life. And I am content with that, but I do feel that I want to be more. I know this feeling will pass and God is teaching me something, but it is so hard for the time being!
I don't want to be here now, but I trust You God! Be faithful to me Jesus.