How to Prepare for 2011

 This link was post by our pastor, thought it was pretty thought provoking and awesome!

  COMPLETING AND REMEMBERING 2010
Review the list of all completed projects:

What was your biggest triumph in 2010?
Beating Leavenworth and winning WVSSL Championships!

What was the smartest decision you made in 2010?
Breaking off an unhealthy relationship.

What one word best sums up and describes your 2010 experience?
forgiven.

What was the greatest lesson you learned in 2010?
Once again, who my true friends are.

What was the most loving service you performed in 2010?
Helping friends out (moving, wedding, etc.) offering my service in childcare at church.

What is your biggest piece of unfinished business in 2010?
Reliv.

What are you most happy about completing in 2010?
 Gearing up for Africa.

Who were the three people that had the greatest impact on your life in 2010?
Jenny Leigh, Courtney, and Ryan Jacob.

What was the biggest risk you took in 2010?
Giving my heart to someone who ripped it apart.

What was the biggest surprise in 2010?
The amount of my so-called "friends" who turned their backs on me.

What important relationship improved the most in 2010?
Jenny Leigh.

What compliment would you liked to have received in 2010?
You are a Godly Woman.

What compliment would you liked to have given in 2010?
You've always been there for me.

What else do you need to do or say to be complete with 2010?
God is faithful!


CREATING THE NEW YEAR

What would you like to be your biggest triumph in 2011?
Helping alot of people with great nutrition and income.

What advice would you like to give yourself in 2011?
I don't know what 2011 holds, but I know who holds 2011...God is in control!

What is the major effort you are planning to improve your financial results in 2011?
Set and write down goals for advancing my business!

What would you be most happy about completing in 2011?
 Nourishing our world.

What major indulgence are you willing to experience in 2011?
Backpacking trips!

What would you most like to change about yourself in 2011?
Be strong.

What are you looking forward to learning in 2011?
To be on mission with the Gospel daily. Applying the Gospel to every decision.

What do you think your biggest risk will be in 2011?
Investing in relationships.

What about your work, are you most committed to changing and improving in 2011?
Being a leader.

What is one as yet undeveloped talent you are willing to explore in 2011?
Backpacking in the mountains.

What brings you the most joy and how are you going to do or have more of that in 2011?
 Swing dancing! Find me a good partner bahaha ;)

Who or what, other than yourself, are you most committed to loving and serving in 2011?
Pouring out my love to disease-infected orphans in Africa and to the kids on swim team.

What one word would you like to have as your theme in 2011?
Joy!

Heart Matters - new song

My heart is still beating,
Though it's broken into pieces.
I thought you were leaving?
Leaving me with this hurt and this pain.

Why did you deceive me?
Desert me in confusion.
The loneliness consumes my very being.

Not all hope is gone;
I will stand watch.
Set my self on the rampart.
Watch to see what He will say to me...

I'm breaking you down over and over again.
When you think it stops you'll still find you in over your head,
But I have My hold on you,
Nothing can snatch you away.
And I'll always hold your heart, so still.

My beating heart has ceased,
In the stillness emptiness is peace.
The canyons of confusion disappear.
My first and only Love steps out,
From the catacombs of my heart once again.

My hope ignites again,
The waiting game is over.
The ramparts of my heart have found a home.

And You're breaking me down over and over again.
When I think it stops I find I'm still in over my head,
But You have Your hold on me,
Nothing can snatch me away.
And You hold my heart, so still.

Singing in the Shower

Yes, I was singing in the shower tonight, might not seem like a big deal...you're probably like "so what, I sing in the shower too!" Well after I say that I can't remember the last time I felt like singing in the shower or anytime for that matter. My joy is starting to creep back into my soul :)
And why? Yesterday a burden was lifted. A heavy burden pressing down on me almost everyday from people in my past that hurt me extremely. So I just didn't feel like singing for quite a long time, anytime. I came to a point in my life where I was praying God either show me what I have to do or just give me a peace in my heart about the situation. And He gave me a peace and joy.
I was just sitting outside at O'Grady's Pantry listening to the little waterfalls and gazing up at the glorious mountains basked in sunlight and colors of changing leaves and I knew that I didn't have to live under the burden anymore. He has given me a new song!
I remember when I was caring for my grandparents and I was singing in the kitchen and grandma asked me why I was singing and grandpa interrupted and said "she always has something to sing about" one of the treasured memories in my heart from South Dakota. And now, once again....I do!
Another burden lifted another step to gaining back my joy :) Praise God! Amen! :)

Pour out your heart and cry before Him

My soul, waits silently for God alone, For my expectation is from Him. He only is my rock and my salvation; He is my defense; I shall not be moved. In God is my salvation and my glory; The rock of my strength, And my refuge, is in God. Trust in Him at all times, you people; Pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us. Psalm 62:5-8

The innermost part of me waits quietly for the Lord, suffering silently. He is my only hope! God only is my stronghold and my foundation. He has ahold of me, I can't be snatched away or moved! God the Sovereign is my fortress and strong tower for me. I hide in Him. I can't be strong alone. Every hope of my being is in Him! Can I trust Him at all times? Yes. I need to cry out to Jesus for saving, He is the only Hope I have! I can't latch onto anything else, because I will be disappointed.

Train - Words

Words they'll try to shake you
Don't let them break you
Or stop your world from turning
When words keep you from feeling good
Use them as firewood and let them burn


Like stones in your pocket people try to wear you down
Someone always wants to take the love you've found
So let's runs with these changes and I want you by my side
And there's not a word I've ever heard that would make me change my mind


Words they'll try to shake you
Don't let them break you
Or stop your world from turning
When words keep you from feeling good
Use them as firewood and let them burn


Underneath every word somebody's heart been broken
With or without words we try to forgive 

Hmm, I'd like to think of myself as a strong person. Nothing can easily shake me...but behind my stoic front I really take what people say to me or about me to heart. I care too much about what other people think about me. I let their words shake me and even break me. I let their words stop my world from turning to a point where I just can't wait to get through the day. Other times I put up a front and pretend that it doesn't effect me...then i sin by holding bitter grudges in my heart which in turn get me down as well. Do these people not realize that they hurt me with their words? Are they trying to inflict pain?
Flip that around and I am convicted to watch the words I say. Remember what the bible says about the tongue.
With or without words I try to forgive...that is what I desire. To forgive and move on and forget. The words won't burn away though. They stay in my head and are lodged in my heart. Jesus help me to move on and act accordingly. Give me words that glorify and honor You.

Complicated

Definition: difficult to analyze, understand, explain.
What is complicated? Life. Relationships. Faith. People. Me. 
Who isn't complicated? God.
He is faithful, unchangeable, constant, loving, trustworthy, Sovereign.

Divine Loveliness

Lord, you have been our dwelling place in all generations. Before the mountains were brought forth, or ever you had formed the earth and the world, from everlasting to everlasting you are God.You return man to dust and say, "Return, O children of man! "For a thousand years in your sight are but as yesterday when it is past, or as a watch in the night. You sweep them away as with a flood; they are like a dream, like grass that is renewed in the morning, in the morning it flourishes and is renewed; in the evening it fades and withers. For we are brought to an end by your anger; by your wrath we are dismayed. You have set our iniquities before you, our secret sins in the light of your presence. For all our days pass away under your wrath; we bring our years to an end like a sigh. The years of our life are seventy, or even by reason of strength eighty; yet their span is but toil and trouble; they are soon gone, and we fly away. Who considers the power of your anger, and your wrath according to the fear of you? So teach us to number our days that we may get a heart of wisdom. Return, O LORD! How long? Have pity on your servants! Satisfy us in the morning with your steadfast love, that we may rejoice and be glad all our days. Make us glad for as many days as you have afflicted us, and for as many years as we have seen evil. Let your work be shown to your servants, and your glorious power to their children. Let the favor of the Lord our God be upon us, and establish the work of our hands upon us; yes, establish the work of our hands!
Psalm 90

And the winners are...

CASHMERE SWIM TEAM 2010!!!!

 Cashmere won Wenatchee Valley Summer Swim League Championships
It was a successful, awesome year! I had a great season and looking forward to next year! :)

               My assistant coaches and me with the first place trophy :)

Why is it so hard to create meaningful friendships and sustain them?

This has definitely been the year of crappy friendships lol. 3 of meaningful friendships in my life have been toasted! Poof! Gone! Vanished! Extinguished! Should I keep going...? Or you get the idea :P
I am not bitter, more hurt than anything ya know? These people had been very special to me...I loved them. We hung out, had great conversations...and then it was like they didn't care anymore, they didn't give a damn. (is that too harsh?) I don't understand how someone can have a great friendship with another person...and...then...just...I don't know...not...
Anyways, it hasn't held me back. I keep seeking out other friendships...building those relationships. Opening myself up to get hurt. Every time you have a conversation with someone you are opening yourself up to get hurt. You trust that other person, you share your thoughts, dreams, you share your heart with them....give them a picture of what a kind of person you are.

Sickkkk :P

Well its 2AM and I'm awake...because I slept all day basically. I woke up early and had a pounding headache, nausea, and a 103 fever. Well I didn't coach or go work at Mary Lous. My fever broke this afternoon and after lots of painkillers, Reliv Energize, plus my shakes, and prayer:) I'm feeling better with a light headache still. I'm about to hit the hay. But anyways, I hate being sick. Last week of swim team! OMG it's gone so fast...Champs are on Saturday!